I have NO CLUE as to why my artistic and writing muse is not allowing me any freedom. Anything I write is pretty much stalled out and what I do have written...isn't finished. I managed to FINALLY get two pieces up, and even those were all half minded works.

Face it folks, the muse is gone.

Maybe when 2010 comes around and I am a bit more settled into things, then my muse may come back, but as of now...it feels like I am forced when doing my works, and it is the LAST thing I need to feel. I want to get better, and I am getting worse. I feel constricted in my work and each time I try and branch out, I stall. Maybe it is my uber fear of committing to change?

*sigh* I guess I may just need to take a break, but as if 2009 isn't break enough. I'm used to doing this...so why is it change scares the crap out of me? Being single instead of having my true love for almost two years, being settled at home to find out my brother moved back in, college driving me nuts every nine weeks...and now another major change is coming in October, and no one will tell me what it is.

Maybe this is why I lost the muse to do anything artistic.

2010 is a new start for me...maybe.

Let's hope the muse comes back.

Amber